With it now being December and the end of the year drawing closer, I thought I would put a list together of all the lessons I’ve learned in 2018. 2018 has been a challenging year for me, but I definitely think it has all been worth it.
I’ve learned to have patience
I’ve always been an impatient person by nature. I just can’t help it. I don’t even know why I’m that way but I’ve always hated waiting for particular things. When my mental health declined over the summer, I knew that I needed to take a step back and learn to have patience with not only myself but any situations I was dealing with.
I’ve learnt that it’s ok to take your time with things and there’s no need to rush. I got so used to trying to power through every feared situation when dealing with my anxiety that I was actually ending up making myself more unwell. Now I’ve gone back to basics and I’m taking small steps to reduce my anxiety naturally rather than completely throwing myself into it.
The same applies to any of my work. I’ve been wanting to set up my own business since the summer but a number of different things have got in the way and it’s made me feel really impatient. But I’ve learnt that taking time and care will benefit me in the long run.
It doesn’t have to be a race. I’ll get there.
I’ve learned that it’s ok to fall
As mentioned, I had an awful summer with a horrible time with my mental health. I felt so unwell and I had no idea how I was ever going to get through it. But I think I needed to fall in order to get back up again.
It’s ok to have failures and setbacks. They teach you so much. In some ways, I am grateful that I slipped backwards during my mental health recovery because it’s put me back on the right track to getting well again. It’s also meant I’ve begun to build up my trust in myself again, that I can get through things and that I’m exactly where I need to be right now.
I’ve learned that I am capable
This year has been one of my most favourite years of blogging. I’ve truly enjoyed blogging this year compared to last year. I finally feel like I know where I am with it and what I want to do with my blog. It doesn’t feel like such a chore and it feels exactly back to what it was when I first started, having fun, being creative and helping people.
Because of this, I have learnt that I am capable of achieving and going for things if I put my mind to it. I’ve learnt to believe in myself and the work that I am putting out there. I do have a range of skills and knowledge that I can put to good use in a number of different situations. I can believe in myself and achieve things.
I’m not a failure and I can build something of myself. I just have to keep going!
I’ve learned to rest
Because I’m trying not to throw myself into everything, I’ve also learnt to rest as well. This doesn’t just mean physically like catching up on sleep or having a lazy day if my body needs one, it’s more about giving my nervous system a break.
Constant anxiety and stress can put your nervous system through a great deal of pressure and unease, so it’s always a good idea to rest it as often as you can. I don’t need to push myself so hard. I can take the small steps to get to where I need to be without tiring myself out.
What have you learned this year?