Even though we’re half-way through November, I thought I would still share my 7 things from October post like last months 10 things from September post. It’s always good reflecting back on my month and seeing how things went so that is what I’m going to be doing in this post.
It’s also a good chance for me to keep you updated with what’s going on behind the scenes of my blog and why I’ve been a little more quiet than usual. I guess that will be coming in my November post next month.
But for now, let’s get into reflecting on 7 things from October.
1. I went for my passport interview
One of the things from October that stood out for me was the fact I went for my passport interview. I’ve never had a passport before not even as a child which as you can imagine means I’ve never left the UK or flown on a plane.
So in order for me to do those things, I had to obviously apply for a passport, but because I was applying for my first adult passport I had to go for an interview just so they could confirm I was who I said I was.
I was honestly terrified leading up to the event which might sound silly to some people but I obviously suffer from anxiety and interviews of any form literally scare the life out of me. I even contemplated not going because I was that scared.
But I’m honestly so glad I managed to push myself because I honestly had nothing to worry about. It was the most random interview ever. They literally just asked questions about my life like what my hobbies are, what my house looked like, what I did for work etc.
Despite that, I am so proud of myself for going and now I can look to facing my next challenge now I have a passport!
2. I survived my week without Matt
Now again another one that may sound silly for some people but a lot of my past anxiety used to be about routines, change and not seeing people like I normally would. So obviously past me freaked out at the idea of Matt going away on holiday with his family for a week but now flash forward to present me and it’s a different story.
Over the past year, I have really worked on allowing myself to be more flexible and being at ease with being alone, which has helped me massively in terms of not getting anxious when things are quiet.
But it proved that I could survive without having Matt around. It was nice because before he went away we had a nice date weekend and spend some quality time together which was exactly what I needed before I said my goodbyes to him.
I never want to depend on anyone else for my happiness because a lot of my previous relationships have been like that and it’s not good for either party involved. So having that space to just be there for myself and look out for me has helped me massively.
It was so weird him not being there and I missed him so much whilst he was away but it was a good chance for me to prove to myself that I could cope and that I can be fine because I have me to look out for myself.
3. Changed my theme on Instagram
October saw me change up my Instagram theme. I was pretty bored and feeling uninspired of taking the same style of shots week in and week out so I wanted to switch things up. I decided to embrace the season and gave my feed some autumn touches to feel a lot more apparent.
It’s been so good for my creativity and inspiration being able to switch things up. I’m thinking more outside of my usual box and getting the chance to take some new style of shots. It’s been a nice way to have a refresh and make me fall back in love with taking photos and the app.
Although now we’re in November I’m struggling to think what more I can do that is autumn related now we’re approaching the most magical time of the year with it being Christmas next month. I definitely need to do some brainstorming!
4. More responsibilities with my work
Last month saw me taking on more responsibilities as my job as a freelance social media manager for a beauty brand. It was so exciting having this new responsibility and being rewarded for it as well.
I can’t believe that this time last year I was unemployed, mentally unwell and never seeing a future for me in terms of having a job, but here I am now, working and on the other side of that experience.
It took me a long time to get to where I am now, I’m talking years and years, but it is so rewarding being where I am now and someone putting the trust in me to have more responsibility.
5. Working with Lizzie
I had to mention a recent service I provided for my business and that was working with Lizzie aka HerSassySelf on her Instagram Audit. It was honestly so much fun putting Lizzie’s audit together for her and being able to help her in order to grow her account and hit her goals.
It made me realise how much I love helping people and being able to support people through their growth. I definitely want to push my Instagram Audit’s further because they are one of my favourite things about my job and being able to guide people into improving their current presence on Instagram.
It’s a very rewarding part of the job and reminds me why I decided to start my business in the first place!
6. Dealing with hormones and IBS
Whenever I do my things from posts, I like to ensure I’m including the not so good stuff alongside the good and positive things. I’ve been on a bit of a rollercoaster with my hormones the past few months after trying a couple of different methods of contraception.
So my cycle and hormones have been all over the place especially as I accidentally messed up my cycle which has meant I don’t know whether I’m coming or going.
Thankfully I feel like they’ve pretty much returned back to normal now and I definitely know I won’t be messing them around again because it was not fun let me tell you that.
Because of all the stress recently, my IBS played up quite a lot in October. It was quite hard to deal with feeling uncomfortable and unpleasant all the time, but I managed to take care of myself in the best way that I could and accept that I was just having a bad flare-up.
7. Health anxiety
Something else that hasn’t been that easy at the moment is my health anxiety. Health anxiety plays a huge role in my life and something not a lot of people know about me or understand but I honestly have the worst health anxiety.
It plays hand in hand with my emetophobia but I generally have health anxiety about anything to do with health so it is a really hard thing to deal with. It affects me every single day but like most mental health illnesses, there are good days and there are bad days, but there have been a lot more bad than good recently.
I’m just trying to accept this is how I’m feeling right now and that I know it will eventually pass.
All in all, October threw a lot of challenges at me and at times I really felt like I was struggling, but I managed to get through it and prove to myself that I have the inner strength to handle these situations because I have worked hard to get here.
How was your October? What are your plans for November?